Thursday, April 29, 2010


That about sums it up. Maybe it's the clomid. Maybe it's hormones all out of whack. I don't know. I just know I've got the blues and I can't shake them. I have only wanted to cry or sleep for two days now. I am emotionally drained from this baby journey. I need a break from everything. I want to go away and let someone else take care of the house, the bills, the puppies...I said all that to say, you don't want a post from me today. It will be a pity party and I don't even feel like attending. Blah...
I'll shake this. I always do. Don't worry. Just pray for me.

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

Wordless Wednesday (sort of)

My poor kitties lives just haven't been quite as peaceful since the pups entered the picture. Nala pretty much lives under the bed in the back bedroom. But I've got to capture on video when she traps Rex somewhere and won't let him pass. He sits and cries until me or Kevin come save him. heehee!

Tuesday, April 27, 2010


We took a little road trip today (yes, I took a much needed mental health day...shh!) and went to check out a concessions trailer for sale. This is the best one we've seen as far as clean, taken care of and has a good price. I am pretty sure it is our next purchase. And, in true fashion of how different we are...on the ride home, I am thinking finances and how this is going to work and Kevin is thinking only about what food he can make to sell out of it. And, that is how we make it work! I think his job might be more fun...wait, no, I don't like to cook. I'll stick to the organizing and money! ha! Here she is....tell us what you think:PS. Mom, you would've loved this place. We stayed for almost 3 hours. He has 50 horses, 50!!!, dogs, cats, donkeys, chickens....and their whole house was decorated with horse stuff. It was a fun trip!

Sunday, April 25, 2010

Emotional roller coaster

**Warning: IF there are any male readers, this definitely qualifies as a woman only post. Unless you want to read about ovulation and cycles, I'd come back tomorrow!
That is the best descriptor of this baby journey we are on....emotional roller coaster. It is up and down, up and down, up and down. People who have been on this journey know exactly what I am talking about. You have your "fun week", but let's face it, the "fun" is functional and for a purpose now. Peeing on sticks every morning and having certain days that you must have "fun", just kind of changes things a bit! ha! Then, you wait. To me, the hardest week is the week of "is this it? will I start? am I pregnant?" You analyze every symptom and sign. And, most symptoms and signs that you are starting are also symptoms and signs that you could be pregnant. Well, this past week has been a week full of hope, followed by disappointment and then renewed hope. And, today the wait was finally over! CrAzY! Let's just say that I have a pretty consistent pattern over the past year. It goes like this - day 23/24, next month day 26/27, then back to day 23/24, and back to day 26/27. You get the drift? FOR A WHOLE YEAR! And, for an entire year, I have not had a cycle past 27 days. This month was supposed to be a day 23/24 month. It came and went. Day 27 came and went. Day 28 came and went. Negative pregnancy tests. Then, some spotting but not my period. I was disappointed. Sure this meant no, not this month, but unsure about when to start my clomid. So, I called the doctor's office and talked to the nurse. She said even with negative tests, I could be pregnant and not to start the medicine but I had to wait it out 2 weeks and they would do a blood test. Not to give up hope!! Ok...hopes back up. Same results for next few days. I am almost a whole week late but with negative tests. I make it all the way to day 31 - today - and start. In the middle of Sunday school no less! And then during church, God puts the most precious chubby baby right in front of me! I bawled on at least 3 occasions, but feel that God wouldn't be making this desire stronger if it weren't what He wanted. So, even though I am disappointed, I praise Him for my wait. Without His love and strength, I couldn't survive this journey or any other. My current Bible study says when God brings waiting periods into your life it is for only one reason: so that you can test-drive your faith.
Pray that I continue to search for His will in this journey and if a baby isn't what He wants for us, that He remove the desire from our hearts.
Thanks for listening. This has been a rough few days. I know that some of you endured this journey for 3 years and more...all I can say is wow! I do have a whole new admiration for you!

Saturday, April 24, 2010

To Kill a Mockingbird

*5th book so far this year. I HAVE to step away from facebook and get back to reading! ha!

I just finished reading To Kill a Mockingbird. I read it when I was younger and am trying to go back and reread some of the classics that I loved. Kevin has the memory of an elephant and remembered the events and characters and would ask where I was in the book. But I read a lot of books and my memory is horrible, so for me it was like reading it for the first time again. I had zero recollection. ha! I do want to watch the movie now. Somehow, I read the book when I was younger but never watched the movie. So, that is on my list now of things to do! Anyway, it was a GREAT book and I highly recommend going back and rereading your favorite classic!!
For more about this book go here: Summary of To Kill a Mockingbird

Thursday, April 22, 2010

What's going on?

We've got several irons in the fire around here:
~This weekend we have a family birthday catering for Kevin's nephew. How sweet is it when all your nephew wants for his birthday is for "Uncle Bubba to cook for me."? Super sweet! And, I think we can handle it!

~I've been talking to an old friend who is ministering to the homeless in our area about getting our left-over food to him after caterings. I am SO pumped about this! Feeding the homeless is something I have always wanted to be involved with and if we have children, I want them to be involved with it too so they can grow up seeing that not everyone has everything. If you think about it, it really isn't that hard to end up homeless. Especially in today's economy. It could happen to anyone. And through Kevin's caterings and concessions, we are going to be able to utilize our left-overs to help others. AWESOME!

~Next week, I think we are going to look at a concessions trailer to purchase for the business. Get excited! Maybe it's the one!

~Oh, and in other news, I got the summer school job! I am officially teaching summer school and am super excited about it because it is all literacy. I know I am going to learn a lot from this and grow as a teacher from the experience. And, as a bonus, we will have some fertility money if we need it and if not, we will have nursery money. Woohoo!

~Other than that, we are just working in the garden & flowerbeds, playing with the pups and praising Jesus for the life we have! :-)

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

And the neighbors were relieved...

Not much going on here since the weekend...EXCEPT...remember my post one day last week with the bad yard, a trailer on the side of the house, a concession trailer in the street in front of the house and a smoker in the driveway???? How could I forget? I couldn't even go out front, I was so embarrassed. Well, parking places at storage sheds run around $60 to $80 a month FOR A PARKING PLACE!! But, my husband found an outdoor storage place not far from the house that is only....get ready....$25 a month for a 10x30 spot!!! I mean, we can get a concessions trailer and the smoker in that spot!!! Yeehaw! I have a normal neighborhood subdivision yard at the moment! Wait, I mean, I have a normal subdivision front yard....I have a burn pile going in the backyard as we speak! LOL! We really need to move to the country....

Sunday, April 18, 2010

Concession season has begun!

This was our first weekend of concessions and the weather was BEAUTIFUL! This job was Friday, Saturday and Sunday. And even though there weren't as many people at the event as last year, it was fun to get back in the concessions trailer! I love this part of Kevin's business over the catering. Maybe it's all the organizing I get to do! ha! Kevin got some rave reviews on his catfish! I am always so proud of him when he is doing what he loves because it shows and once people eat his food, they are hooked! He had the best job of the weekend...doing what he does best ... standing out back frying fish, working the crowd, and praising Jesus! He has about 10 new best friends and they all want his fryer! LOL!
This is Tanner's "what do you want Mom?" face. heehee! We love you Sandy! :-) I totally made Kevin pose for this picture! Ha! We had two fryers going in the trailer and all these bad boys out back. Menu? Catfish dinner, Catfish & Fries, Chicken Strips & Fries, Cheese Fries, Hot dogs, and nachos. It's ALL good and I ate ALL of it ALL weekend! Ha!
I may weigh a ton before Florida this summer!!
It was cool in the mornings and this morning we brought coffee ~ which was a HUGE hit and kept Kristen running! Go team!
Now, we have one weekend off and then 5 weeks lined up in a row...and we have a lead on a trailer of our own instead of borrowing the ministries little one. :-)
And, last....I totally snuck this picture...why don't things ever go back in the bag once you get them out? LOL!

Thursday, April 15, 2010

Our latest trick...

Mom gave us this idea and we've been working hard on it. The pups command to eat is Amen! So, they say a prayer before every meal. I think Rex looks a little convicted! ha!'s only about 30 seconds...this one is for you Mom!

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

Won't you be our neighbor?

Best ponder that question long and hard...because right now, this is what our front yard looks like! And no, the lawnmower isn't broken...
This concessions trailer is parked in front of our house right now (but supposed to be for one night only...)This is what our driveway looks like: (and yes, Kevin is the proud owner of a beast of a suburban that needs a paint job)
And how could we forget the side of the house? We have room for ONE MORE trailer!!I seriously can't even go out front tonight b/c I know the neighbors have to hate us right now! We've got to get some land and move to the country. This is ridiculous and what is even MORE ridiculous is the amount that storage places charge you just to park something.
So, want to be our redneck neighbor? heehee!

Monday, April 12, 2010

Step 1 of the baby plan

...or is it step 2 and step 1 is the regular old-fashioned way??? Anyway....I had my doctor appointment today and feel really good about the plan. We are having Kevin tested, and we do need to set that appointment up ourselves. (We were hoping/thinking her office might set it up.) The doctor also wrote me a prescription for clomid, which I will be on for the next 3 months. If Kevin checks out ok and the clomid doesn't work, then at the end of summer, we go back for the next step. It looks like based on some "girl" issues, we will skip the dye test and go straight to laparoscopy as the next step if not pregnant by the end of summer. I am a wuss about surgeries of any kind, so let's all pray for clomid to do the trick! Oh, AND, the doctor told me to drink Robitussin while taking the clomid!! ha! But whatever the course, I feel better just knowing my doctor is proactive and understanding.
Thank you for all the prayers and support. Remember - no news means there is no news. So please understand my asking that we not be asked if we are pregnant, trust me, we will let you know. This is a bit of a roller coaster we are on, and sometimes we just don't feel like talking. And, sometimes we do and when we do, you may get to hear more than you ever wanted to know! If we get pregnant, I doubt we make it two days without letting you know because we'll be shouting from the rooftops! :-) Love you all!

Sunday, April 11, 2010

Weekend Report

A great weekend (up until this morning when I woke up puny...think it's sinuses...urgh...I wanna be outside!!). Anyway, this was the weekend of Kevin's 'man' spring camping trip with some of his friends from high school. And, he took Stella with him, so Rex and I had the place to ourselves! :) That = scrapbooking Friday night with the girls! Lots of giggles. When Laura (aka Funny Girl) has her baby and has a miss a few scrap session, it will not be the same without her humor - for sure!
Yesterday, I got up and worked in the yard some and then Rex and I went to Searcy for Autumn's first horse show. Glad I made it because with our upcoming concessions schedule, I won't be able to make another one until July!! She did great - especially since her first big event, riding barrels, she got bucked off! But she overcame her nerves and got back on and it turns out Grandma had the bit in wrong and it pinched Doc's mouth....blame it all on Grandma! ha! Junior Flags...that is Grandpa standing watch in the gate! :)
Different horses for different events...this is Mindy in Western Pleasure. At least I think that's the event. I just think about how many little girls dream of having a horse and Autumn has more than one! What a lucky little cowgirl with awesome grandparents!!Rex was a good boy all day except for thinking he could play with horses and wanting to jump up and 'box' their face. He is not a dog that could be let off leash around them but this was his first horse show and I think by the end of the day, he was getting used to everything. I did forget his choker collar, but a quick trip to the pet store got him under control. And, we practiced our obedience all day, the kids loved him, and he was worn out and snored all the way home! A great distraction from missing his sissy, Stella, all weekend.Every horse has their own color they wear in blankets and harness and stuff. Doc's is zebra print. Hey mom, got that bit on right? heehee! I should note here that my mom is a nervous wreck when Autumn is riding and can't sit still all night, eat or relax. But they still have fun. I guess that is just grandma nerves.
I had a blast, but maybe it was all that dust that finally kicked my allergies/sinuses into overdrive. hmmm?

Thursday, April 8, 2010

Look out...she's on her soapbox again!

Adultery. Cheating. Affairs. Whatever label you put on seems to have become a laughing matter in light of all the celebrity scandals lately. I can honestly speak from experience that it is NOT a laughing matter, and I feel sorry for these woman who are having to live out their shame and embarrassment on the covers of magazines and in the media. (and yes, I know that is a price they pay.) But, the people who make insensitive comments like "well, if she'd been taking care of her man at home, then he would'nt have had to...." You know what I say to that? If HE had spent as much time and energy with his WIFE as he did his "girlfriends" then they probably wouldn't be in this situation in the first place!!! I know that everyone has different circumstances, but marriage is supposed to be a sacred vow. It is supposed to mean something and it doesn't seem like it does much anymore. When people get married, you are promising to love, honor and cherish that person forever. To have an affair is the ultimate betrayal against your spouse. I cannot even explain the pain it inflicts upon the faithful spouse. I cannot even begin to describe the mind games it plays on the faithful spouse. You want to know, yet you don't want to know. It is not a laughing matter or something to joke about. It is real people's pain. Behind every cheating spouse, there is someone hurting. I just cannot wrap my mind around why it has become such common place for people to have affairs. It infuriated me before my first husband cheated during our marriage. It infuriates me even more now because I have experienced first hand the pain that goes along with someone making that choice. It is so hard to put into words the emotions that go along with finding out your husband has cheated. I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy. It is difficult for anyone to truly 'get' a situation unless you have lived it. So, all I ask is don't try to pretend you know what you would do in that situation and tell the faithful spouse or judge the faithful spouse on what they should do. Let them decide for themselves and then support them. Don't gossip and spread their pain. Don't make light of painful situation. Someone has lost trust in their best friend. Someone is crying themselves to sleep at night wondering where things went wrong. Someone wonders if they will ever trust again. Someone is asking why?

**Disclaimer: Yes, I know women have affairs too. But obviously my experience was with a man having an affair and that is all that seems to be the talk in the media lately.
**Note: This post has nothing to do with Kevin. He IS my everything! :-)

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

Unity Fest Tickets!!

I still have 75 tickets to sale...come on, you know you want one!! Remember I sold a winning ticket last year!! :-) A $10 ticket gets you a free fish dinner AND a chance to win a 2010 Ford Ranger truck, a bad boy mower, or a 46 in. HDTV. Even better is that you don't have to be present to win. When is it? May 29th Where? Batesville
But remember, you don't have to be there to win the prizes AND all the money goes to support John 3:16 Ministries. They don't charge men a dime to stay at the camp for six months and they do not run on tax payers money~solely donations.
Email me if you want a ticket, we can even make this transaction happen through the mail.
Love ya!

Monday, April 5, 2010

So much happening in one day...

My teaching day was pretty's the week before testing where it is drill them and pray they've got it! I mean, let's face it, at this point, they've either got it or they don't! And, I honestly think they've got it ~ especially in math! :)

Anyway...I rushed home from school let the pups out, because Kevin was playing in a golf tournament today and then was able to minister to someone who gave his life to Jesus today. Amen! I could share that whole story, but the short version is best put as Kevin said it "for probably the first time in my life, I was where I was supposed to be when I was supposed to be there!" I do love him most when he comes home all fired up for Jesus!
In the meantime, I am home planting some bulbs and gerber daisies Kevin's momma gave me. I do love coming home and heading straight outside when the weather is nice!! Puts me in a happy place!! I mean, look at these red birds chillin' and bathin' in the bird bath....just makes you smile.... Then, Kevin's sister called about a family vacation to Florida this summer. Umm, hello? That is on my bucket list (cuz I replaced Grand Canyon with it...everyone keeps telling me it is just a big hole in the ground and I'm not missing anything). So, looks like we are going to Florida in August if all pans out. AND, after that, my BFF's hubs called and had gone to look at this beast of a suburban for us that Kevin wants in Fayetteville. Looks like we'll have money to go to Florida, because this beast is old and cheap! ha! Seriously, it has a big pulling engine and may not be beautiful to us ladies, but to my husband, she is a beauty that just needs a paint job....and my daddy can help with that. Now, isn't that a lot of good stuff all in one afternoon? Wow! Thank you God for all your many blessings! :)

Sunday, April 4, 2010

Happy Easter!

A great day of fellowship, worship, good food and family. The sunrise service was the perfect start to the day. And, now my favorite version of "He Arose!" by Big Bear himself....heehee!
Hope everyone had a great weekend!

Saturday, April 3, 2010

The Shack

**4th book so far this year...I need to step it up!

I just finished re-reading The Shack. I don't normally read books more than once but this one is special. I finished it in 3 days the first time I read it, because I couldn't put it down. This time, I took my time and soaked it in. Also, knowing where it was going, there were times I just simply got goosebumps. This is an awesome book and I highly recommend it if you haven't already read it. If you want more information on it - go here - good stuff!

Thursday, April 1, 2010

April Fools!

I started my day by hiding in our curriculum specialist office and having her go to my classroom to make the kids think they were having a substitute teacher. After a few minutes, I walked in and said, "April Fools!" Great start to the day! My boys were plotting yesterday how they were going to trick me....they had no idea who they were messing with! ha!

Nothing else major happening...Kevin is puny (allergy season always gets him). Bible study was awesome tonight!! The smoker is fired up and smells yummy (can't wait for my ribs tomorrow night!!). Lovin' the tulips I see popping up everywhere! Looking forward to sunrise service on Sunday. :)

Hope everyone has a safe and fun Easter weekend. Let's all praise Jesus for all He's given us!