Wednesday, June 9, 2010

Changes

I have been a little (well probably a lot) in the dumps yesterday and today. It is just hitting me all the changes at work. Next year won't be the same. New principal, new coworker, and no Nancy. Change is hard. Especially when you don't know what is coming next. The one I am having the hardest time with is Nancy leaving. She is our curriculum specialist. But she is also the heart of the school. She is the reason I even made the leap to come to Williams. She has been like a school mom to me, a trusted friend and my spiritual mentor. Nancy led our teacher Bible studies and guided us all in our walk with God. She was the one we went to for answers regarding school or life problems. There was never a time that she didn't drop what she was doing and listen. I have cried in her office and prayed in her office many times. I can't imagine Williams without Nancy there. It just won't be the same. I have cried for two days now because all along I kept hoping selfishly that she would change her mind. And, now all of us who have been in denial are facing up to the fact that she is leaving to go to the new school. To say she will be missed is an understatement!
Then, my coworker across the hall has decided to teach kindergarten. I know she will love it, and I am excited for her. But I am nervous about who will be taking her place. We had an awesome team. We all planned together and worked together easily. Now, we are getting a new team member. I am keeping an open mind...I mean, honestly, there are library spots open in the district. But, I don't really want to leave my school. This group of people have become like a family. They were with me through all the hard stuff with Kevin and his alcoholism. They never judged...only prayed and supported. And, now they are supporting him in starting his business and hiring him for caterings and ordering smoked meats each week. We are like a family. That is the only way to describe it. And, several of our family members retired this year or are leaving for one reason or another. Next year will be different. I have no idea what it holds for the school or for me. I am still praying for God to open the doors he wants me to go through and close the ones He doesn't. I am praying for a good, honest, Christian leader for Williams next year. Change is hard and it's time for me to dry up these tears and stop pouting that I won't have Nancy right down the hall anymore or Jill across the hall. I do know that someone at the new school will be blessed by having worked with Nancy Morton. I sure was!

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