Thursday, September 29, 2011
Tuesday, September 27, 2011
Hysterosalpingogram (HSG) - Radiographic contrast dye is injected through the cervix into the uterus and fallopian tubes. This x-ray evaluates the shape of the uterine cavity and determines whether or not the fallopian tubes are open. The procedure is performed in the radiology department.
Uterine cramping usually occurs during the dye injection. This resolves within a few minutes of completing the procedure. Occasionally, patients may experience some dizziness or lightheadedness immediately after the procedure. This usually lasts only a few minutes. You can expect to be in the radiology department for about 45 minutes for this procedure.
See that last line? The one about 45 minutes? That's not true. The rest is true. It wasn't pleasant, but it only took about 10 minutes for the actual procedure. I took my ibuprofen an hour before my scheduled appointment like they said, but I'm pretty sure by the time I actually got in, it had worn off. Oh well, it's over. Two yay's from today: I only had to pay $20 today!!! And, my tubes are clear!! Whoot!
On to the next step....
Monday, September 26, 2011
Say a little prayer please! My nerves are about fried dealing with balancing all this and school and we are barely into it! Of course, it would help if people called me back! Just sayin.....
Sunday, September 25, 2011
We went to the football game Friday night. Cave City (coached by one of our classmates) vs. Newport. Then, Saturday, we had a fish fry at Jacksonport on the White River. After that, everyone separated for the Hog game. Then, we had the dinner and dancing at the Country Club Saturday night. I was so proud of Kevin - he was a designated sober driver for the first time in his life!! Awesomeness!! :)
And, this pretty much sums up my husbands weekend...he loved on everyone rather they wanted it or not. Gave me a break, so I have no complaints! ha!
Hard to believe how many classmates we have lost already. Sad! I thought Tammy did a good job with the decorations and the memorial.
Thursday, September 22, 2011
Today, I WILL do better about handing it over and not worrying. Today, I will try my best to have a normal day. It is hard when you have a cell phone strapped to you at all times waiting for doctor's to call back, but I am determined.
Tuesday, September 20, 2011
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
Monday, September 19, 2011
Blood work up is in progress, and Kevin will be taking in another "sample". Then, next week I get to have x-rays to make sure all my tubes are open. After we get all this information back, then we get to discuss what our options are...apparently they are still leaning towards the IVF side. And, I am trying not to focus on the money part when I have enough to worry about.
As for why I just skipped my cycle this month? Who knows? Maybe I just wanted to be pregnant so badly that I willed it away. Or, maybe I am like one of those dogs that has a false pregnancy. Before long, I'll be carrying dolls around thinking they are babies. I mean, I am sure there are cases where people have lost their minds from all this infertility business.
Thanks for the prayers, calls, and texts. I think I am retreating into my shell for awhile and just focusing on Jesus, and me and Big Bear.
Sunday, September 18, 2011
Anyway - there you have it, for a few short weeks, we thought maybe. We were happy but yet scared to be happy. And, in the end, Big Bear took it really hard. I hurt more for him then for our crushed dream. It is hard to see a man cry. It breaks my heart. So, for now, I have to be strong and keep my chin up. I have an appointment tomorrow to see what is going on and get an ultrasound of my ovary with the cysts. Plus, have some pre-screening tests ran. And, so the infertility journey continues. I believe with all my heart that God is preparing us for something big. For a joy so huge that we can't even comprehend it. I believe we will be parents and our hearts will practically burst with all the love we have for our child. I believe....and I pray. Please pray for me tomorrow. And, say an extra prayer for my Big Bear. The emotions are on edge.
Tuesday, September 13, 2011
Therefore confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous person is powerful and effective.
Keep praying those Benson Baby prayers! :)
Monday, September 12, 2011
Saturday, September 10, 2011
I will do my best to explain our doctor appointment this week and what our next steps are but keep in mind that we left with a lot of information and a lot of "if this, then this" scenarios. So our heads were spinning when we left! Let me start off with the good stuff, then I will get to the stuff that concerned me.
First, insurance covered 80% of the visit! Yay! And, it will continue to cover 80% until we are officially labeled with the infertility label. So, all the screening and testing will be covered by insurance. One of the first things he told us was that due to our age of 38 and that we had been unsuccessful for 2 1/2 years, he was going to be very aggressive in our treatment. Basically, after 35, all the numbers start dropping more each year. Number of eggs produced. Percentage of getting pregnant. And, we all know the likelihood of a downs baby increases the older you get. The first area of concern are the cysts he found on one of my ovaries during the ultrasound. Here is the first of the "if then" cases. I have to go back on day 3 of my cycle for another ultrasound and testing. If the cysts turn out to be "good" cysts (apparently we create functional cysts every month...who knew?), then no worries. We proceed. However, if they aren't functional cysts, then priority number 1 is removal of the cysts. I will get to have surgery. Joy! And, of course, very worst case is cancer and removal of the ovary! Seriously, he takes you from best case functional cyst to worst case. No question left unanswered. Except that SO many are answered, you can't possibly remember it all! ha!
He is looking at Kevin's samples again. The part that concerns me here is that the sample he was looking at, made it seem to him that IVF (in vitro fertilization) would be the route to take rather than IUI (artificial insemination). BIG cost difference here! But, with the count he was looking at, he gave a 20% success rate with IUI at our age and a 40% of success with IVF at our age. Not sure the exact cost of IUI, but IVF runs $12,000 to $15,000. Wow...with a 40% chance of success. Makes you go hmmmm? I was all prepared to try the artificial insemination but I'm not sure how I feel about IVF. I have time to think about it though. One step (month) at a time.
Basically, when he saw the cysts, that became priority #1. So, I go back on day 3 of my cycle for them to re-evaluate those AND to have some additional tests done. After that, we see what step 2 is going to be.
If you see our name in the paper filing for bankruptcy shortly after our child is born, don't judge! :)
More to come after the next appointment...keep those baby prayers coming!
Thursday, September 8, 2011
Wednesday, September 7, 2011
Tuesday, September 6, 2011
Not sure if I will post tonight or not...depends on what happens I guess!
It's all in God's hands.
Prayers much appreciated!
Monday, September 5, 2011
Of course, we ordered pay-per-view and watched the Hogs. It was such a blow-out that it was a great first game for the Hogs, but made for a boring game. (Just my opinion...I like those down to the wire, blood pumping games!)
Sunday, brought church, more napping....
Today, we have been lazy again. Although we did drive around and look for some potential parking places for the concessions trailer. Hopefully, I am all rested up and ready to conquer the week! It's nice that it's only 4 days!
Oh, I got my pictures turned in for Jax's portrait. I sent the tomato pic as #1.
And, I'm pretty sure all the napping went to my head and I signed up to work the nursery once a month at church. What was I thinking?!? I haven't changed a diaper in 12 years!!!!
Keep us in your prayers tomorrow is our doctor appointment with Dr. Batres! :)